A Letter to Brayson 7 months old

Dear Brayson,
I wanted to write you this letter b/c I want you to know just how much I love you! Before becoming your mommy I had visions of what it would be like to be a mother. I can say that most of those visions aren't what I had expected or thought it would be like. It is so much more. The love I feel for you is sometimes overwhelming. Every night when I feed you your bottle before putting you to bed I pray to God and thank Him so very much for letting me be your mommy and for blessing me with the most amazing gift and blessing I could have ever asked for. I look at you as you fall asleep in my arms and my heart just grows bigger and I can just feel my love growing. I look at your little face full on innocence and beauty and I know there is absolutely no place on this earth I would rather be than holding you in my arms! When you eat your night time bottle you and I play with our hands together and it is something I love to do! During the day I will look at you and you will look back at me and you give me a smile that just melts me! Every morning when I go in your room to get you up you stare up at me and give me a huge smile and I know that no matter what happens that day, that I have you and your love and it will be good! You don't even have to say that you love me but I can tell by the way that you look at me that you do! I also know that when you are in my arms you feel safe and happy and that I am your protector and always will be! You have made me a mommy the thing I always wanted to be in my life and I just love you so very much! I am so excited that I get to spend the rest of my life knowing and loving you. I know that every night when I close my eyes that my heart will be fuller than it was the day before! I always wondered why it took us so long to get pregnant or why we had to go through what we did, but now looking back I wouldn't change a thing b/c if we did I wouldn't have you. I would have waited a million years if it meant I got to be your mommy! I am looking forward to our life with you growing up and seeing what kind of man you will become! I know that no matter what you choose to do and where you will go that your daddy and me will support you every step of the way!! Speaking of your daddy I just have to add a few things about him too. Your daddy loves you so much too!! He looks at you with awe and amazement on his face all the time! Sometimes he will look at you and get tears in his eyes b/c he loves you so much! We are always amazed by the new things you do but your daddy is your biggest fan! He's always cheering you on and just loves to see you doing new things! He was meant to be a daddy in his life... he was meant to be your daddy! Sometimes I can't decide who to watch you or him b/c I love seeing the love in his eyes he has for you!! Anyway, sweet boy, I want you to know how absolutely loved you are and how much better our lives are for you being in it!! I promise for the rest of your life you will always be so loved and the apple of our eyes!! I must also add that your grandparents are quite smitten with you too! They come over just to see you and they love you so much! You are a very lucky little boy!

This is what you are doing now in your life:

On your 6 month Birthday you learned how to roll from your back to your belly. Since that day its been hard to keep you on your back. You have started to roll in your sleep and now sleep on your belly most nights. You will wake up once a night and have mommy come in and roll you over to your back, but then just roll right back over to your belly. When you play on the floor you have started to crawl backwards and will go all over the place. I don't think you are very far off from crawling. You are now starting to sit for long periods of time without assistance. You spend hours a day jumping in your jumper and you love it! You are eating 4 bottles a day with 8 oz each and you eat a mixed fruit and a mixed veggie a day! You love getting out of the house and are quite the ladies man! You make peoples day all the time just by giving them one of your beautiful smiles! You like to "babble" and I think you are going to be very much like your daddy! You can't sit still and we are in for it when you do get mobile! You eat your last bottle at 10pm and usually wake up anytime between 9am and 10am (nice for your mommy)! Everyday, you learn something new and it is fascinating! You love to laugh at your daddy for anything! You laughed the hardest you have laughed at your daddy dropping the pillow on the ground! You are a very happy baby!! You are going to the dr. today but when we weighed you on our scale you weighed over 19lbs so we will see!! You are chubby and we love it! You have the cutest cheeks and they were made for kissing! You do not have any teeth yet! We shall see what the next month brings but I'm sure it will be very exciting and you will learn even more! Your nicknames are piglet, Bray Bray and Bray boo!! I love you!!

Love,
Mommy